....rabbi yassir ^^

assalamualaikum n hi...lamanya x blogging

alhamdulillah i finished my 5 years of study at medical school of HUSM..
alhamdulillah we kinda kicked it well for this year exam..
alhamdulillah we gather again at sabah for hajrah's wed..
alhamdulillah im now at home fulfilling the rest of my duties..

not yet the beginning of new life..
insyaAllah in few days from now on..
kinda nervous, worry, anxious, emm..
excited??
not really sure bout it..
but honestly the scary moment will comes any time soon..
and im not sure how to deal with it..
though i know that Allah will helps me..

its a mixed feelings..
i wanna be a doc..
but at the same time the nerves scared me the most..
how im gonna face all the challenges..
how im gonna face all the curses..
how im gonna face all the tensions..
how im gonna face all the hectic life..

o Allah please help me..
let me be the most pious and cautious worshiper..
so that my life will be blessed..
and i'll be happy..

amen...

dear KUN..live well!!

i'm taking care of an unfortunate child who comes from a poor family for these 5 days..looking into how hard he struggle to keep on living make me in love with him...he's just 6 months old neonate who knows nothing bout life..who never thought that he'll be diagnosed to have congenital heart disease as well as to be one of those syndromic child..

his mother is a very warmth and lovely mother who's never regret and complained how tired she is as mother to take a good care of an unfortunate son like him..

O Allah, give strength to the father & mother as well as the child to keep on living...to keep healthy and happy..to grow up well & to be able to play like the others

everything happen for a reason

كُتِبَ عَلَيْكُمُ الْقِتَالُ وَهُوَ كُرْهٌ لَكُمْ وَعَسَى أَنْ تَكْرَهُوا شَيْئًا وَهُوَ خَيْرٌ لَكُمْ وَعَسَى أَنْ تُحِبُّوا شَيْئًا وَهُوَ شَرٌّ لَكُمْ وَاللَّهُ يَعْلَمُ وَأَنْتُمْ لَا تَعْلَمُونَ

Jihâd (holy fighting in Allâh's Cause) is ordained for you (Muslims) though you dislike it, and it may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allâh knows but you do not know

so have faith upon Allah...
try our best..
and pray for the rest..

O Allah give a SUCCESS & BLESS

56 days more to go..

day by day..

things seem tougher & harder..

everything go haywire..

but alhamdulillah Allah will always be with me..

with us..

plus being blessed with friends who're always being so supportive & positive

it's easy to say that.."ENOUGH, I WANA GIVE UP!!"

but..

are we aware that..

life ain't easy as we thought it'll be..

so don't ever give up...

but try to climb higher up...

REMEMBER..

He's the PLANNER

and we're the RUNNER

rabbi yassir wala tu'assir..

8 weeks more to go..

all the 5 years of learning period will determine how far far we'll go..

but Allah the One who has the right to determine what's best for us depend on our enthusiasm, hope, du'a, faith as well as our effort..

O Allah let us go through these periods with ease and barakah..

let us success with ease and barakah..

make our wish come true to be a Muslim doctor

ameenn..Allahuakbar!!

welcome aye dear NEWBORN..

Assalamualaikum n Hi i bit to all ^^

Now, i was posted in o&g posting, a posting for both mother , the baby as well as the father n the whole family..a place fulfilled with love, warmth, responsibility & struggle..

a place where a mother's love been expressed as they voluntarily carried the 9 months sized abdomen with them here & there..a sac of love which they protect with their own lives..a place of warmth whenever you see a mother would scrubs their big abdomen while smiling happily..a time where you would frequently heard a mother's wish to their own flesh & blood..

a place of responsibility where a mother would pledged to herself to really make sure that she will loves the baby wholeheartedly & to give the best..and plus, a place of struggle where you face a workaholic baby during the 2nd phase of labor to pull out the baby in the most safe way..and a hardworking baby who mould his head well to face a new phase of life outside their mother's womb..

i delivered 2 babies during my on call with the helped of the best midwives ^^.. honestly to see the baby's face & cried might carried away all your worries & stress..to see them struggle make me wanna struggle throughout my live too..it's just a matter of age & phase of life, they are struggling well to start on living & we have to struggle to keep & continue on living as we already pass the initial phase, alhamdulillah +______+

so, we need to be strong as they're..REMEMBER..we used to be that but we might forget as we live through..SO, keep on to be STRONG..

It is We Who have created you. Why, then, do you not accept the truth? Have you ever considered that [seed] which you emit? Is it you who create it? Or are We the Creator? (Qur'an, 56:57-59)

Allah has created us in the possible way..

He Who has created all things in the best possible way. He commenced the creation of man from clay; then He made his progeny from an extract of discarded fluid. (Qur'an, 32:7-8)

Allah is the one who choose us among millions of sperm that present during ovulation process..

He has created both sexes, male and female from a drop of semen which has been ejected. (Qur'an, 53:45-46)

and,

Was he not a drop of ejaculated sperm, then a blood-clot which He created and shaped, making from it both sexes, male and female? (Qur'an, 75:37-39)

we're the CHOSEN one & we're born as a CHAMPION..so why not we continue to be a champion aite..huu..be thankful and always praise Allah for the fortunes, bless, loves, & attention.. ALHAMDULILLAH..

exx..eemmm

97 days more to go before PRO 3 exam..we're struggling to put more input in our brain....

gambattteneeee!!

o Allah..do help us ++

we really need You Allah..

the One and Only

HOPE and TRUST

i walked alone this afternoon after having my lunch..passing across the physio department and the hall to my hostel..as i was walking, some kind of feeling hit through my soul..the feeling of warmth and happiness..

without i realize, I'm happy for being here for almost 5 years..there may be no much different from years to years but somehow i love the feeling of being here..

to get up early in the morning, to struggle hard in order to wake up successfully though sometimes i do wanna continue to sleep and skip the round..huu..bad thought aye..haha..to spend time with friends during our study time..and to stay up late at the a&e treating those in need..to jog along with some friends during the evening..and much more..it was so fascinating though there were times when things went wrong..

I'm thinking of enjoying my life without hesitation and negative thought..i don't wanna regret later on..but the fact that all the bad thought keep on running through is undeniable..but i do wanna proceed

o Allah please help me..help me to keep on trying..help to keep on believing..help me to keep on hoping for the best..and help me to keep on living...

cause i know Allah is gracious and merciful and none others for me to rely on, Ar-Ra'd, 13:30..

كَذَلِكَ أَرْسَلْنَاكَ فِي أُمَّةٍ قَدْ خَلَتْ مِنْ قَبْلِهَا أُمَمٌ لِتَتْلُوَ عَلَيْهِمُ الَّذِي أَوْحَيْنَا إِلَيْكَ وَهُمْ يَكْفُرُونَ بِالرَّحْمَنِ قُلْ هُوَ رَبِّي لَا إِلَهَ إِلَّا هُوَ عَلَيْهِ تَوَكَّلْتُ وَإِلَيْهِ مَتَابِ

Thus have We sent you (O Muhammad SAW) to a community before whom other communities have passed away, in order that you might recite unto them what We have inspired to you, while they disbelieve in the Most Beneficent (Allâh) Say: "He is my Lord! Lâ ilâha illâ Huwa (none has the right to be worshipped but He)! In Him is my trust, and to Him will be my return with repentance."

and i did know that once Allah helps me there's none who can overtake my strong will to succeed and proceed...Ali imran, 3:160:

إِنْ يَنْصُرْكُمُ اللَّهُ فَلَا غَالِبَ لَكُمْ وَإِنْ يَخْذُلْكُمْ فَمَنْ ذَا الَّذِي يَنْصُرُكُمْ مِنْ بَعْدِهِ وَعَلَى اللَّهِ فَلْيَتَوَكَّلِ الْمُؤْمِنُونَ

If Allâh helps you, none can overcome you; and if He forsakes you, who is there after Him that can help you? And in Allâh (Alone) let believers put their trust.

but we have to remember that

the degree to which a person is helped and aided by Allah depends on the degree of his intention, drive, aim and hopes. Help from Allah comes to people in proportion to their drive, intention, hopes and fears and failure comes to them in like manner"

by Ibn Al-Qayyim

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i need strength..exam just around the corner..15 weeks left for us to polish our skill and knowledge..ya it's an ample of time but out of it, how much quality time that we really spend for study..

ya Allah takut ya Allah...please help me..

HECTIC week

alhamdulillah everything settle..the exams, the interview as well as the EBM presentation..

exams..

the first exam ever during these 2 years where we have to counsel patients..there's 3 sections out of 8 sections that involved consultation..the first consultation was regarding non compliance to anti hypertensive medication where the patient wanna change his medication to once daily monotherapy..the next section was a mother who brought her child due to chronic cough. i have to exclude all the possible diagnosis in order to get the provisional diagnosis. it was not 100% suggestive of bronchial asthma since there's no nocturnal symptoms or even SOB and plus the aggravating factor was only cold weather..i just answer confidently, "my provisional is bronchial asthma since there's few symptoms suggestive of asthma and there's strong family history of asthma on paternal site" huu..and the last consultation involving an elderly who came due to diabetic foot and i need to consult him regarding foot care..

yup, alhamdulillah, i do have the idea of what information to be told to the patient but the fact that i don't consult them effectively was undeniable. it was very messy, and it was not in order..huu..sometimes, i have to look back on the question paper and take a glace at the examiner "o dr...do help me +_+" huhu..

delivering is not the same as memorizing..we might memorize everything but we may not deliver everything that been stored in our brain..so PRACTICE, PRACTICE and PRACTICE..it goes the same to our study..we have to read a lot but remember that we should deliver a lot too..insyaAllah we'll be better in terms of understanding, memorizing and delivering...

SPA interview

i was the 2nd last candidate for room 3..there's 2 interviewer, a SPA officer as well as a doctor..the session was not so long, it only took nearly 15 minutes..they asked me to introduce myself..among the questions are..what is the most memorable moment during these 5 years..what field that i'm interested in for my specialty later on..then the last question is how do i manage dengue patient..alhamdulillah as i mention above i do learn the importance of delivering apart from memorizing..so PRACTICE..PRACTICE and PRACTICE...

Evidence Based Medicine presentation

O Allah, alhamdulillah for Your Gracious gift..the panel was a different doctor and she was very nice..i'm not saying that the actual respective doctor who should be the panel was not nice but this one was a bit lenient..and since we all do a last minute job so everything seems to go well during the session..alhamdulillah we able to answer the question given, and doctor said that we do a good job +_+ wink, wink!!

naa!! don't take for granted..we do mistakes, we should not do last minute preparation..to be honest it was stressful..and we do miss a bit here and there..so as a reminder to everyone and myself..HAVE SOME TIME DOING OUR WORK.DON'T TAKE IT LIGHTLY AND NEVER DO IT LAST MINUTE..cause maybe today we're safe but in the future, who knows..aite...

whatever it is..alhamdulillah the district posting is already over and medical posting is coming through..o Allah do help us for this coming posting..and may us be a better person in order to be a better doctor..insyaAllah..

HARDships..

this is a busy week..

we'll have district posting exam tomorrow..then the next day we'll have SPA interview and the day after that, we got EBM presentation..somehow, i feel a bit stress or should i say very depressed and demotivated @_+ having some inner debate making me more stressful..

o Allah please gives me strength to endure all of these..don't make me a quitter but as a fighter..

keep on MOVING without LOOSING anything

it's almost time to complete everything..without realizing how fast time pass through..it's almost time to hold the responsibility..as the health care provider along the life time duty, as the worshiper..

5 years is not a short time, it may seems not adequate but i know that i wont have extra minutes or even hours to spent..but sometimes or should i say, most of the time, it comes across my mind that "what have i learnt through all these years?? will a be a competent doctor?? am i capable to do as what the doctors have been doing??" gosh..frustrating, depressing..how will i end up to be?? a healer or a licensed killer, na'uzubillah..o Allah..do help me!!

i got class yesterday..doctor did ask lot of questions pertaining to the subjects..the thing that i realize is how am i not yet ready for the responsibility..once again..frustrating..depressing..haih..i have no time to loose..15 more weeks before the exam, the final exam, which means the exam which will determine my fate later on..

naa..i am wrong right..the exam won't determine my fate but Allah who'll determine my fate..cause Allah the One who knows everything..about everything..cause to Allah we serve and to Allah we beseech..as what stated in Quran, Ali Imran 3:109

وَلِلَّهِ مَا فِي السَّمَاوَاتِ وَمَا فِي الْأَرْضِ وَإِلَى اللَّهِ تُرْجَعُ الْأُمُورُ

And to Allâh belongs all that is in the heavens and all that is in the earth. And all matters go back (for decision) to Allâh

but the factors that matter is am i worth enough for Allah to help me..as in the Quranic verse An-Najm 53:39

وَأَنْ لَيْسَ لِلْإِنْسَانِ إِلَّا مَا سَعَى

And that man can have nothing but what he does (good or bad)

have i gave my best shot in my study..have i read and practice enough??did i pray a lot to Allah??did i ever show my best interest relying upon Him??have i completed my job as a Muslim as well as a student??did my parents give their bless??did i show good manners to other people??it all matters aite..

o Allah give me the strength..not only the strength to endure this crucial time forward, but as well as the strength to be a better Muslim..

"i wanna be the future doc ...O Allah please don't pull me back"