keep on MOVING without LOOSING anything

it's almost time to complete everything..without realizing how fast time pass through..it's almost time to hold the responsibility..as the health care provider along the life time duty, as the worshiper..

5 years is not a short time, it may seems not adequate but i know that i wont have extra minutes or even hours to spent..but sometimes or should i say, most of the time, it comes across my mind that "what have i learnt through all these years?? will a be a competent doctor?? am i capable to do as what the doctors have been doing??" gosh..frustrating, depressing..how will i end up to be?? a healer or a licensed killer, na'uzubillah..o Allah..do help me!!

i got class yesterday..doctor did ask lot of questions pertaining to the subjects..the thing that i realize is how am i not yet ready for the responsibility..once again..frustrating..depressing..haih..i have no time to loose..15 more weeks before the exam, the final exam, which means the exam which will determine my fate later on..

naa..i am wrong right..the exam won't determine my fate but Allah who'll determine my fate..cause Allah the One who knows everything..about everything..cause to Allah we serve and to Allah we beseech..as what stated in Quran, Ali Imran 3:109

وَلِلَّهِ مَا فِي السَّمَاوَاتِ وَمَا فِي الْأَرْضِ وَإِلَى اللَّهِ تُرْجَعُ الْأُمُورُ

And to Allâh belongs all that is in the heavens and all that is in the earth. And all matters go back (for decision) to Allâh

but the factors that matter is am i worth enough for Allah to help me..as in the Quranic verse An-Najm 53:39

وَأَنْ لَيْسَ لِلْإِنْسَانِ إِلَّا مَا سَعَى

And that man can have nothing but what he does (good or bad)

have i gave my best shot in my study..have i read and practice enough??did i pray a lot to Allah??did i ever show my best interest relying upon Him??have i completed my job as a Muslim as well as a student??did my parents give their bless??did i show good manners to other people??it all matters aite..

o Allah give me the strength..not only the strength to endure this crucial time forward, but as well as the strength to be a better Muslim..

"i wanna be the future doc ...O Allah please don't pull me back"